trans* man is sexually frustrated

bring your sweat to the summer show               wear it under your bathing suit

and i’ll spend the rest of my nights lusting after it

for years i've been dreaming of

                                          dirt

allowed my sweat to granulate

and be heavy like the dark sand swirling the waves at high tide

i’ve laced all my beers with this thick dark sweat and survived

i blink and feel the sting of dirt in my eyes

              i am filthy

                                          just

scoop at the blank

space behind my clitoris to know

              and feel

the truth of this