The Heavier One

Each night you want to be held

the whole night. We start together.

I leave. Not for somebody else.

Your buoyancy rides the night

wave. I can’t hold you and sink.

I have to feel myself fall through

the mattress, the world. Speak

words I can’t hear myself say.

I wash up blank on lit morning

that spreads out on your skin

where you let my skin stay.