Happy Birthday

he said he couldn’t help but lose his mind around me

and it was the nicest thing anyone had ever said to me

all I could do was whatever he wanted

all the things she said I should never do.

he was much too old for me, and we both knew it

I yanked him off once because it was the nicest thing

I knew how to do

I got naked, let him touch one of my breasts

told him I wasn’t a virgin because

I didn’t think I was.

I was only fifteen

and ugly, and quiet

but I felt beautiful when he kissed me

pure celebration.